Get To Know Me Challenge | Becoming A Better Me

A better you is whatever you see as a better you in your eyes. Looks aren't everything just like personality and the inside isn't sometimes everything either. It is whatever it is for you.

For me, a better me is how I wish to see myself when I look in the mirror. I would really like to achieve that in the following year.

First of all, I want to lose weight. Not because I want people to like me. Even though it would be lovely to stand out for a positive thing and not because I'm a large size. I want to be able to shop in other shops like New Look and Primark. Currently I can only get clothes online and from Yours and Peacocks because of my size and that really sucks. I want to be able to look good in a dress without having to wear a corset or waist trainer under it and cover my legs with tights. I don't want to become skinny, don't get me wrong. I just want to get to the ideal weight I meant to be as suggested by my doctor.

Due to my weight, I had to have a lot of extra folic acid tablets throughout my pregnancy. I had a risky pregnancy for myself because of having a higher risk of developing blood clots and trumbosis. I want to lose weight so that I don't have to worry so much about everything in my next pregnancy, so that I can enjoy it more without the worries and stresses. I want to be the ideal BMI so that when the time comes I can have a water birth if I wish to. I want to be able to take pictures of my bare bump from the start instead of only taking pictures of it like that towards the end because the rolls weren't visible by then anymore.

I want to lose weight so that I fit in my dream wedding dress. There is nothing worse than dreading looking at wedding dresses because you either have to get a custom size because they don't have plus sizes or because the dress you want is meant to show off the curves and not the oversized rolls on your sides and your back boobs.

But most of all, I want to lose the weight for my health. I want to be able to walk up the stairs and not be out of breath as I get half way up. I want to be able to not worry so much when the doctor asks me to step on the scales. I want to be able to achieve this for me. Because if I can do this, I can do anything.